more of the depression stuff

if you're sick of reading about how bad I feel, then stop right here.



not feeling so great about things right now. I'm questioning whether I should have ever moved here. there is so much shit that goes on in this city and the state laws are confusing. I'm just having the toughest time dealing with this place and I've lived here for almost 3 1/2 years. I can't find my niche. I can't find joy in anything. I feel like the essence of my soul has been sucked right out of me and I thought the opposite would happen. it's like I've lost myself, and now I have to start over and find it again. or maybe I didn't have it in the first place. the bad stuff overwhelms me so much that I can't enjoy the good stuff that's happening. how do I change? where do I begin? I just don't have the answers.