depressed, depressed, depressed! SHIT!

well, it's been raining for 8 days straight. this weather is throwing me into the pit of darkness, for now anyway. plus, been back from the Catskills for 5 days now. on Monday, due to a craptacular commute, I was immediately thrown into my anger pattern. people are so rude. I've got to be more thick skinned, when it comes to EVERYTHING.
plus, to add to my state of mind, I went to the dr this week. I have a staph infection on my chin and I'm loaded up on antibiotics; 4 pills a day. AND, my dr could feel cystic lumps in my left breast. nothing to be alarmed with yet, but still, holy fuck! my mom has had these issues for years, so, it's probably nothing. have to get rechecked in a month. this is my body's way of saying 'welcome to 36. you're fucked!'